I've been very irritable all day. I didn't sleep well last night. I was very tired, but I had bad dreams all night.
It seems like everything was getting back to normal. Now, I'm paranoid again. I need to figure out where he's living. I'm get weird when I hear people walking up behind me. I'm always afraid I'm going to turn around & he will be there. I don't know why. Thank God he doesn't go to my school.
I think I need to rest. But, I don't want to. I just feel like staying in bed and being alone. I haven't felt like that in a long time. I wouldn't have gotten out of bed this morning if I hadn't told Casey I could give him a ride to school.
Which, I guess it's good I went. Today was a track meet so during our 5th, 6th, and 7th hours we got out to watch it. I have a few friends in track so I got to watch them. It was a nice day too, but I was still headachey and tired.
I think I'm going to be in a slummy mood for awhile. I need to find out if he lives here again. Maybe he's just visiting.
I'm tired.
I gave my best girl friend Meagan the link to my diary. Don't know why, but I wanted to. I know I can trust her, I just don't want her to see me differently. So, maybe she'll see this.
I might lay down for awhile.

"Wake Up Exhausted"

I wake up exhausted it's not morning
It's back to sleep to re-dream me
We're alone and we're happy
But there you are, angry with me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I hated this city before you came here
So let go and move on
We're strangers, we're not friends
I hate this and I hate them
This city's exhausted and it's wound up
Soon to be a place that's just filled up
And I found out that you're angry
And you're sorry you ever met me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I am alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind